after the united win in the ucl finals

the msn blog redirects to this entry when u hover over overwhelmed..

well overwhelmed simply means i cried like a baby..

continuously for an hour almost!

without others noticing more incredibly!

this really meant a lot..
and now after 7 years of undivided love and support..
and the kind!!
more than anyone i know personally..
and more than even those who may claim it as birthright..

having seen the lows with them.. not many but no less shattering..

finally seeing them achieve the pinnacle of what they can..
that is all i needed to see..

or as i may say to myself...
that is all i can give them.


at this time
i would like to believe that my days of active support are over..
the reasons for this being varied but mainly because of the logistical difficulties when and if i do go to study in the US..

rebirth: or something like it

9 feb 2008

bang.. crash.. jarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. pain..

ah thank god i fell.. now i'll wake up and this dream will all be over.. just like after every other fall we have in our nightmares.. wait a minute.. what dream? am i dreaming? where did i last sleep.. wait.. i dint sleep.. wasn't i at jay's.. in the kitchen yes.. where am i now? still there..? no! this cannot be happening.. ooh... whats this cool surface touching my cheek? lets open our eyes and see...

hey this looks like jay's kitchen.. why is it tilted so? wait a minute.. does that mean? are you sure? of course you're goddamned sure.. get up u fool.. wait.. what?? oh! get up.. right!
huh? ok so .. how long was i here? how come no one came in? find someone..

those were my first thoughts.. as i recovered from the hard hit i took to my left eyebrow.. which had resulted in me getting my lights knocked out.. or was it the other way around? did i get the hard hit on my left eyebrow because i had the lights put out! and how! (yes exclamation point) can't be sure any more

ok jumped to my feet.. gotta find people..

TONE - Theory of Nothing and Everything

so i was talking to neo the other day in the train
and partly because i meant it and partly to impress her
i told her of the way i see people, some people

some people who seem to exude this quality of world-knowledge

i explained it thus..

there are some people you see in everyday situations
and then just looking at their faces you know that they know the meaning of life
they are content with their life and they have no issues with anyone or anything
they just appear to be placed there at that given spot with that serene look on their face
talking to the people who know them
acknowledging kind gestures
and generally not coming in anyones way
it is very easy to miss these people as they do not demand attention

i gave her an example of well.. two people i know who appear to be these kind of persons
one is an old lady who sits opposite the post office near my house and sells boiled eggs on the street.
she does not carry a whole lot of eggs but just enough to get her through the evening..

whenever i pass by i have never acknowledged her and she has never noticed me..
yet somehow i know that there is no need to do any of those things..
on a given day if i decide before hand that i'm going to buy one of em eggs to eat that day then surely she will be absent or the eggs would be over.
i told her that i saw a similar person on the middle bridge at borivli station that day..
he was selling books and didnt care that no one in particular was interested in buying..
as i walked past i made a note to myself to buy a book on the return journey should he still be sitting there..
and after what 4 hours and countless incidents i returned to that spot to find that he had relocated to other lands..
i thought that was just as well as it went a small way in proving that i was correct about teh whole mysterious people thingy..

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