coincidence I

i was redirected to a nashville tv site coz apparently they have linked a niagara falls video i have there.. no issues coz thats happened before.. but then i found another music video there

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_bhCtcHnLMI



and the similarity to a picture i had taken on 18 oct 2008 was a bit too unnerving..





















plus yesterday after united lost to porto (well ok drew, hehe i forgot)
i was fuming at the bus stop and decided to take my mind off it by counting the dripping water at the bus shelter till the bus pulled in.. i gathered it would take the bus 10 mins so when i started counting i told myself the bus would come by count 600. so up i went till 300 and then decided to count back to 1. surprisingly (or not) the bus pulled in as i was counting 9.. 8.. 7.. 6..

after the united win in the ucl finals

the msn blog redirects to this entry when u hover over overwhelmed..

well overwhelmed simply means i cried like a baby..

continuously for an hour almost!

without others noticing more incredibly!

this really meant a lot..
and now after 7 years of undivided love and support..
and the kind!!
more than anyone i know personally..
and more than even those who may claim it as birthright..

having seen the lows with them.. not many but no less shattering..

finally seeing them achieve the pinnacle of what they can..
that is all i needed to see..

or as i may say to myself...
that is all i can give them.


at this time
i would like to believe that my days of active support are over..
the reasons for this being varied but mainly because of the logistical difficulties when and if i do go to study in the US..

rebirth: or something like it

9 feb 2008

bang.. crash.. jarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. pain..

ah thank god i fell.. now i'll wake up and this dream will all be over.. just like after every other fall we have in our nightmares.. wait a minute.. what dream? am i dreaming? where did i last sleep.. wait.. i dint sleep.. wasn't i at jay's.. in the kitchen yes.. where am i now? still there..? no! this cannot be happening.. ooh... whats this cool surface touching my cheek? lets open our eyes and see...

hey this looks like jay's kitchen.. why is it tilted so? wait a minute.. does that mean? are you sure? of course you're goddamned sure.. get up u fool.. wait.. what?? oh! get up.. right!
huh? ok so .. how long was i here? how come no one came in? find someone..

those were my first thoughts.. as i recovered from the hard hit i took to my left eyebrow.. which had resulted in me getting my lights knocked out.. or was it the other way around? did i get the hard hit on my left eyebrow because i had the lights put out! and how! (yes exclamation point) can't be sure any more

ok jumped to my feet.. gotta find people..

TONE - Theory of Nothing and Everything

so i was talking to neo the other day in the train
and partly because i meant it and partly to impress her
i told her of the way i see people, some people

some people who seem to exude this quality of world-knowledge

i explained it thus..

there are some people you see in everyday situations
and then just looking at their faces you know that they know the meaning of life
they are content with their life and they have no issues with anyone or anything
they just appear to be placed there at that given spot with that serene look on their face
talking to the people who know them
acknowledging kind gestures
and generally not coming in anyones way
it is very easy to miss these people as they do not demand attention

i gave her an example of well.. two people i know who appear to be these kind of persons
one is an old lady who sits opposite the post office near my house and sells boiled eggs on the street.
she does not carry a whole lot of eggs but just enough to get her through the evening..

whenever i pass by i have never acknowledged her and she has never noticed me..
yet somehow i know that there is no need to do any of those things..
on a given day if i decide before hand that i'm going to buy one of em eggs to eat that day then surely she will be absent or the eggs would be over.
i told her that i saw a similar person on the middle bridge at borivli station that day..
he was selling books and didnt care that no one in particular was interested in buying..
as i walked past i made a note to myself to buy a book on the return journey should he still be sitting there..
and after what 4 hours and countless incidents i returned to that spot to find that he had relocated to other lands..
i thought that was just as well as it went a small way in proving that i was correct about teh whole mysterious people thingy..

--abrupt end to the blog--

The Spirits Within

under the shower..

i was looking at my stubble which has grown considerably in the last week..

i was thinking of when i wud shave it off (post 18 jan i thought to myself..)

i was thinking of the circumstances that i wud have to shave it off in(chance encounter with the 'first time hit'... see russel crowe in beautiful mind hehe)

so i was thinking do i have to carry a razor?

or do it "cold mountain" style hehe

but for that i'd need the knife of my dreams.. the one i always dream of..

so then i thought about how i wud carry the knife.. a belt on the thigh sounded like the coolest.. (a'la Zissou and his Glocks!)

so then thought about which other situation it might come handy in..

exerpts:

train robbery.. we are tied up.. i ask the person next to me to reach for the knife somehow..
cut me loose.. i cut them loose.. we kill the guard who is watching us.. close all entry points into our carriage..
then i manage to sneak out of the door on the side of the engine to get to the link between the carriages..
the way those pani-wallahs do on the trains to guj.. hehe.. somehow manage to disconnect the leading car from us..
and get back into the carriage before the goons at the back realise.. then once we pull the emergency brakes (i do not know how they work? without the engine?)
we are standing still right? now the goons either realise that it was us who did it or their comrades in the leading cars decided to ditch them..
so they wud get to work on us.. i take up command.. call the shots.. ask for a thick book and pull it under my shirt(part bullet-proof)..
then i discuss my plan.. ok im rushing out to knock out the nearest guy with a gun.. with my knife..
i'll need cover fire so i need five guys to get off with me and fire railway stones at them..
the good shots take single stones and fire.. the worse shots take handfuls and throw them randomly..
i explain that it is highly unlikely that i will live thru the ordeal.. so i need someone to take over when im gone.. and complete the tasks..
once we have a gun.. we shoot at the other goons.. and try to take their guns..
i also explain the 'recover me' procedure incase im still breathing at the end..
i 'teach' them how to remove the bullets from me and then press down on the cut.. to prevent excess blood loss..
oh and before leaving.. i tell the guys with the girls to not leave them whatever happens.. to die with them if need be ;)
and i tell the others.. you'll die with me.. as i jump off..

how one grows up!

there are certain things that i would never do a few years ago..
and now nothing can stop me from doing those..

what causes these changes in the head..
i mean isn't it the same me now and then..
what changed?

not in a mood to exemplify now.. will do so soon..

laugh at the truth?

ok.. i noticed one thing..
people tend to laugh at the simple things in life..
simple observations.. made by anyone and expressed
completely truthfully in a simple manner will undoubtedly make you laugh..

one may say that i have drwan the conclusion from many sources but the one that really got me thinking, and i have already unwittingly given a hint in the sentence, was bicentennial man which i happened to re-see yesterday..

in one/many of the inconsequential dialogue exchanges between andrew and portia, portia always mentions that no one had/has been able to make her laugh as much as andrew did..
what i noticed was that she was finding the simplest of observations funny.. if not outrightly so, at least subtly.. like when he says ''i never quite understood the meaning of pearls before swine"..
now this is funny for her as well as the audience..
but we use that expression pretty often though not everyday.. and we never give it a second look.. but here when it is highlighted.. at least to me it was very funny..

another incident occurred today or maybe it was yesterday.. i cannot recall exactly at this time..
but it was this incident that instigated me to write this entry..
it was with sadhu, and one of my observations was funny for him..
its not the first time that a mundane observation has been found amusing
it happened many times before with a wide spectrum of peoples..

i guess.. its about the way i was brought up.. my parents though encouraged, never forced their concepts of any thing upon me.. they fortuitously were not aware what a great influence that has had on my life.. and i thank them for it..
so the things that many people take for granted are still a novelty for me..
and i do not mean that i was deprived of life experiences.. i will not be too far off the truth if i said that i have had a very full life, almost full enough for more than one my age..
but it is the small things that do no matter in day-to-day functioning that i missed out on..
now i cannot put my finger on any particular incident.. but there have been many..
and well if it brings a smile on peoples faces.. who am i to complain?
and this entry was in no means of imagination a complain of any sort.